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Monday, May 18, 2009

女子篮球，家庭，与生命的价值（中译）
Girl Basketball, Family, Life (in Chinese)

陈凯著 吴必忠译 (Kai Chen Written 2003, Reprint 8/8/2011)

献给我的女儿艾丽克斯：“一个人如何打篮球体现一个人如何生活 ”-- 陈凯
To my daughter Alex: "How a person plays basketball reveals how a person approaches life." -- Kai Chen

（译者）序：

这是一位前（中国）国家篮球队队员和他女儿的真实故事，一次家长与子女间爱的交融。
This is a true story about a former China National Basketball Team player and his daughter - a moment in life that truly connects a parent and his child.

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一直以来，我都认为我女儿在篮球运动上只能算是一个普通人，一个和很多人一样对篮球无比热爱、渴望胜利、但却资质平平的普通人，所以最初我对她选择篮球运动并不抱太大希望。 在她刚接触篮球的时侯，我甚至以我曾是中国国家队队员的经历告诫她“这可是一项野蛮的运动！”我郑重地对她说“你真的确定你想从事这项运动吗？”没有多余的话语，她用“砰砰” 响起的运球声来告诉我，这就是她的回答。 从那时起，我们便在后院开始了她的篮球训练。 只是有谁知道，我的女儿要打好篮球将要面临多大困难，她是平足、没有速度、没有弹跳力甚至连跑动的时候手臂也是笨拙摇摆的。 当然，也许身高是她的一个优势，我身高2米，我妻子身高1.8米，我相信我的女儿应该能长得比较高。 但众所周知，长得高并不代表就能打好球，面对女儿这样的身体条件，我心里不无担忧。

平时我都比较早就去球场的。 今天我依旧早去，只是我的心格外难受。 前几天艾丽克斯曾抱怨说自己的左膝盖有些疼，因为她那里去年做过前十字韧带的修复手术，我不知道现在她的膝盖怎么样了。 应该说本赛季到目前为止，她的状态都很不错，在之前的三场小联赛中，她表现得相当出色。 她不仅没有让手术影响到她技术的发挥，而且她还打出了她前所未有的高水平。 对于她状态的复苏我很激动，甚至感到欣喜若狂。 直到两天前她告诉我她膝盖的疼痛，我才知道她出色的背后，有着强忍伤痛的坚持。

那是在一次球队的例行训练时队友不小心撞伤的。 她的膝盖肿胀了起来，里面充斥了一些淤血。 不过她只是把它当作一般的小伤来对待。 此时我的女儿已经是中学联赛第三赛季的球员。 经过长期艰苦训练，正是在技术上全面爆发、成绩上收获累累的季节。 难过的是，她却不得不经受这样伤痛的考验。 我不敢对女儿接下来的比赛和前途多想，心中满是了担忧、害怕和沮丧。

当我走进球馆的时侯她正在固定自行车上做腿部练习，由于校队在球场的一端做着训练，做完腿部练习后她就到另一端做投篮练习。 我走过去给她给捡球和喂球，这样的练习我们曾做过无数次了。

“你觉得怎么样？”我强忍着自己焦急的心情。 她没有看我。“不舒服……当我收紧肌肉的时候，就感觉里面很疼。” 她的声音微微的颤抖。 我走近她，蹲下来检查她的膝盖，揉捏她的腿部。 手术疤痕仍然红润光滑。 我很难过，默默地站了起来，我觉察到她眼里闪烁着泪光。 然而，当注视我女儿的脸时，我惊讶的发现她的表情充满了坚定。 那一刻，我突然有股把我近期一直萦绕在我脑子里的想法一股脑向她诉说的冲动，虽然我之前并没有打算这么早就告诉她。

“艾丽克斯!”我双手抓着她的肩膀。 “我知道我平时对你非常严格和非常苛刻。 但是，有些事情我得告诉你……。” 突然，我哽咽住了，泪水如决堤般喷涌而出，我无法继续讲下去了。 我发现我的一只手仍在她肩上，但另一只捂着自己的嘴巴，眼泪顺着我的脸颊不住往下淌。 然后我紧紧地将她抱在我的怀里。 此刻时间静止了。

在马尔伯勒学校体育馆，在耀眼的灯光下，我双臂紧紧拥抱着我的女儿，将她完全地揽入我的心窝。 我在她耳边喃喃说： “我多么爱你，多么爱你，艾丽克斯……作为你的父亲我感到非常自豪，非常骄傲……。” 我尝到自己急切亲吻她额头时流下的泪水。 “我也爱你，爸爸！”她啜泣着对我说。 那一刻，我意识到我的眼泪不再是悲伤和沮丧，而是由衷的喜悦和内心的全然释放。 我意识到，她不但知道自己在这项运动上已经取得了哪些成就，而且她知道有什么东西正摆在她的面前，同时她也做好了应对将来困难和挑战的心理准备。 我意识到，她这样如此坚定的信心，足以战胜未来发生的一切。 同时我意识到，我们彼此相爱，无论将来发生什么事情，我们一家人都会幸福的生活下去。 这一刻，我沉浸在她魅力和品格所带给我的激励中。 而经历了这几天难以言状的难过后，我的内心重又回到了平静。 我们是生活的主人。

看着女儿1米85的挺拔身姿，我站在那里，轻声呼喊她的名字。 我对她说：“你已经展现了你自己！你已经证明了你在这项运动中的价值！你是生活的强者！”我欣慰地笑了笑，接着半开玩笑地正色道： “毕竟，那都是源于你遗传了我的基因。” 她倏地笑了起来，犹如一朵夏日清晨绚丽绽放的牵牛花，多么美丽的一幅画面。

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GIRL BASKETBALL, FAMILY, LIFE
女子篮球，家庭，与生命的价值

-A TRUE AND CONTINUING SAGA OF A RETIRED CHINESE NATIONAL TEAM BASKETBALL PLAYER AND HIS AMERICAN DREAM-

By Kai Chen 陈凯, (Written 1-07-2003, Reprint 8/8/2011)

DEDICATED TO MY DAUGHTER ALEX

“The way one approaches the game is the way one approaches life”

I had always thought of her as just another player, with ordinary talent and a big heart and the love of basketball. I remembered that when she just started to get into this game, I even tried to discourage her. “It’s a brutal game.” stating my own experience as a former basketball player for the Chinese National Team. “Are you sure you really want to get into this?” The only answer I got was the sound of dribbling the ball. Sure I got a basketball stand in the backyard the moment she started running. But how did I know she had flat feet, no speed and jumping ability and an awkward swing of arms when she runs? I know she is going to be tall since I am 6’7” and my wife Susan is 5’11”. But being tall does not mean she can play the game. Everybody knows that.

I arrived the gym a little early, as usual. But this day I was unusually distressed. I was concerned about the pain she had complained in her left knee. She had an ACL reconstructive surgery last year on that knee. So far she had felt fine. And she had performed quite well in the last three tournaments this season. Not only did she not show signs of rustiness, she had some of her best games ever. I was excited and even ecstatic about her recovery, till two days ago she told me about the pain. A teammate inadvertently ran into her during a routine practice. Her left knee had swollen and there was some fluid in it. She was just about to put things together after she first had the injury in her sophomore year. Now just when she was about to blossom into herself in her junior season, now just when she was about to taste her own fruit of hard work, she had to…. I did not even want to spell out the fear, the uncertainty, the helplessness.

She was working on a stationary bicycle when I walked in. After she was done, she picked up a ball to shoot at one end of the court while the school varsity was practicing at the other end. I walked over to rebound and feed her the ball as I had done for thousands of times.

“How do you feel?” I felt compelled by my own urge to know.

“Shaky.” She answered without looking at me. “When I tighten my muscles, there is a pain inside.” Her voice became a little unsteady.

I approached her, squatted and examined her knee. I reached and touched her leg. The surgical scars were still red and shiny.

I stood up. I could see a little moist sparkled in her eyes. There was a little helplessness. Yet she was quiet with that typical determined look on her face. I suddenly realized that this couple of days I was preparing something to say to her in my head, a speech I never thought I would come up with this early.

“Alex,” I reached out my hands to hold her shoulder. “I know that I am your harshest critic. Yet there is something that needs to be said….”

Suddenly I was choked with emotions. I could not continue. I found that one of my hands was still holding her, but the other hand was covering my own mouth. Tears started to trickle down my cheeks. Then both of my hands held her tightly in my arms. Time stood still.

Here in the Marlborough School gym, under the glaring lights, I was holding my daughter in my arms, I was embracing her fully in my heart, as I murmured words into her ears: “I love you so much, so much , Alex…. You make me feel so proud to be your father. So proud….” I could taste my own tears with my feverish kisses on her forehead.

“I love you, too, Dad.” was all I heard through her sobs.

I realized at that moment that my tears were not tears of sadness and disappointment, but tears of happiness and deliverance. I realized that not only she knows how much she had achieved since she started playing this game, she knows what lay ahead and she is ready to face the challenge. I realized that she had such a flare of confidence that no matter what happens in her future, she will be OK. And I realized that no matter what happens in our family's future, we will be OK. For a few moments, I was immersed in her grace and dignity. I felt a serenity coming back to me after some unspeakable distress. I realized words can not express what I felt: Life is being lived.

As I stood there watching her 6’1” beautiful frame, I whispered her name to myself as I thought. “ You have shown me who you are. You have proven to yourself that you are worthy of this game. You are a winner in life.”

I smiled and felt like joking as I extracted myself from the moment: “After all, you got my genes.” She laughed and her face radiated like a Summer morning glory. What a beautiful sight!

陈凯博客： www.kaichenblog.blogspot.com

使自己成为伟大的人
Be A Great Man Yourself, the World Will be Great

“自由人”对抗“中国人”序列
"Free Beings" vs. "Chinese" Series

陈凯一语：Kai Chen's Words:

"Only the good and the real can be great. It takes a great man to recognize greatness; it takes a small man to deny greatness. To recognize greatness around you is to allow yourself to be great; to deny greatness around you is to deny and destroy your own greatness. True greatness, like goodness, will manifest itself no matter what. Be brave and prepared to be great yourself, if you don't see any greatness around you."

只有真实的和道德的才可能是伟大的。 只有人的伟大才能去承认伟大本身；一个小人往往去否认伟大。 承认你存在周围的伟大其实是允许你自身伟大的可能；否认你存在周围的伟大其实是否认与毁灭你自身伟大的可能 。 真正的伟大就像真正的天良一样，不论如何都会闪亮发光。 如果你的周围充满了渺小，拿出勇气，做好准备去表现你自身的伟大。

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By Kai Chen 陈凯 （Reprint 8/9/2011)

China has never been a great country. Mao has never been a great man. They have never been such because they have never been real and never been good.

I have never believed that small, evil and despicable men can create a great country. I have always beieved that only great individuals can create a great country. If you ever expect China to be great, be great yourself. If you ever expect China to be free, be free yourself. If you ever expect China to have a hope, be hopeful yourself... You are the one who creates your own tomorrow. You are the one who creates your own fate and destiny. Don't be afraid to be great, and don't be afraid of the responsibilities that come with your greatness. Shed your "small man" mentality, manifest your greatness. It is in you, it is in everyone of us. It is always there. Only you are too timid to admit it, or too reluctant to recognize it. But without you showing your greatness, how can the world be great?!

绝真实的丑态：一个崇尚虚无的受辱无尊严的奴才居然也每一刻都奢望着将造奴作奴的文化心态繁衍到世界的每一个角落。
A most powerful image: A slave with an enslaved soul also wants to spread the nihilistic slave culture around the world.

陈凯博客： www.kaichenblog.blogspot.com

对基督的儒化与佛化--华人的信仰病态一观
Confucianizing Christianity – A Typical Chinese Pathology

作奴的“中国人”用虚无对抗存在
How Chinese Use Nihilism against Existence

“自由人”对抗“中国人”序列
“Free Beings” vs. “Chinese” Series

By Kai Chen 陈凯 5/8/11 www.kaichenblog.blogspot.com

“中国人”用虚无对抗存在，用奴役对抗自由，用受害者无奈与苦难的绝望对抗自由人对尊严与幸福的追求早已不是什么新闻。 但那些来西方反西方，用自由灭自由的“中国人”试图用佛家儒教解义基督精神的丑态怪象仍常使我哭笑不得，不知是想用呕吐来表达我的恶心，还是想用唾辱来表达我的愤怒。

就像许多“反共人士”总想将“个体自由”从他们的“民主”中删除一样，华语系的所谓“基督徒们”也总是想将“个体自由意志与个体价值”从基督精神中删除。

你（如果你懂英文）只要到华语系的教堂去听一下看一下就会知道用英文传教/祈祷与用中文传教/祈祷的根本区别了。 “上帝”（Supreme Emperor）与“原罪”（Original Crime）是与英文的God 与“Sin”的原义截然相反的。 God （In one definition - Short for Goodness, 上苍的一个定义--“好”的简称）是有其基督精神的道德含义在其中的：真实，爱，宽容，基于自由的人的幸福与快乐（Joy）是基督精神的内涵实质。 信仰、理性、情感、欲望、自由意志、个体独特是God/上苍在造人的时候就赋予人的深含意义的特质。 消灭/诋毁/否认/扭曲这些God/上苍所赋予的特质是对God/上苍的消灭、诋毁、否认与扭曲。 无怪乎华语系的“基督徒们”往往为自己的物质利益祈祷，而英语系的人们则往往为真实的精神价值祈祷。 （你难道没有想过为什么“中国人”向往“繁荣、昌盛、统一、和谐、、， 而“美国人”则对“正义与自由”不懈地追求？）

请记住： God/上苍并没有创造希特勒、斯大林、毛泽东、、。 是“反God/上苍”创造了这些恶魔。

基督精神的伟大在于它是解放人并使人走上自由欢乐的人生的。 基督用他的受难/死亡/再生告知人们不要奢想“人间天堂”，也不要奢想“人”能成“神”。 基督用他的言行告知人们：人对自身“原弊/Sin”的自知自省是人求真、自由、幸福的基点。 基督用他的受难与死亡将人的“原弊/Sin”暴露在人自己的面前。 基督用他的再生解放了人，让人去爱，让人勇敢地去面对自身、面对真实、面对自然、面对未知，让人无畏地用基于良知的理性去探索，去走向未来与希望，去追求真实的幸福。

将God/上苍装在自己的口袋里作为工具与武器去吓唬、欺蒙、控制与奴役他人是对God/上苍的最大背叛，也是“中国人”常常走入的由“消灭自我”而产生的腐败与邪恶。 用“神佛儒”去消灭/诋毁/否认/扭曲God/上苍是典型的华语系人们对基督精神的虚无化、专制化、工具化与奴役化。 消灭人的自由意志（Free Will）是所有想奴役人、控制人的专制者们共有的特质，不论这个专制是从政府那里来，是从民族家族那里来，是从文化族群那里来，还是从教会/牧师/神父/和尚/师宗那里来。

不难看出，“中国人”的“佛”是要消灭人的自我与幸福的。 “中国人”的“儒”是要建立奴役人的信仰与文化的。 “中国人”对基督精神的“佛化”与“儒化”是族群对个体的“人”阉割而奴役的一个必然产生。

中国寺院中的八大金刚恐怖狰狞的、杀气腾腾的鬼像，中国“龙”的图腾的凶恶造型，中国“大肚弥勒佛”的虚无外表、、，无一不是用人心中的恐惧感与人对生命意义的虚无感来奴役人与控制人的。 自由、欢乐、幸福、尊严、正义等普世终极的价值由此被打入十八层地狱。 “中国人”在家中对儿童的辱骂、恐吓、屈辱就是因对腐儒等级专制与对佛家虚无人生的尊崇而衍生的。 专制奴役的文化就此被“中国人”的家庭世代延续下去。 共产邪恶不过只是延用了中国世袭专制（家庭、族群）文化，并贴上了“马克思”的标签为更“完美”的专制在几千年的“屎缸尿盆”中再加了一根强力“搅屎棍”罢了。

用“佛”与“儒”去理解God/上苍说轻了是如同用“金木水火土”去理解自然界一样，说重了是如同是用空气解渴、用画饼充饥一样。 再说重一点就好像在用炸药去建筑大厦一样。 一切都是庸人、懒人、蠢人、恶人（“善走捷径”而“误入歧途”的人）之举。 用族群意识去除个体的自由意志去谈基督精神犹如阉割自己的睾丸去达到性高潮一样。 用恐惧与惩处去除基督精神中的“爱”与“宽容”犹如用“杀人奴役人”去建立秩序一样。 用虚无与无奈人生去除基督精神中的“意义”与“存在”犹如用砒霜、白面当饭吃一样。 用“无我无私”的“大公大同”去除基督精神中的“个体与God/上苍的沟通”不过是与共产邪恶一样的，在中国“驴拉磨”与“抽陀螺”的几千年的恶性朝代循环中，在“创造又一个更完美的专制”中再晕眩虚无一次罢了。

God/上苍不是每一刻将刀架在你的脖子上，将鞭子举在你的脑袋上，将你的恐惧感持在手中作为人质而得到满足感的“控制狂”。

你愿意你的孩子们每天战战兢兢地、如履薄冰地在“人奴”所伪造的牢笼框架中，在虚无人生的无奈中，在死后上天的期待中，在每一刻都要因犯错越轨而被惩罚的恐惧中无所作为地、无幸福快乐地、无感无欲地、无自知无进步地度过他们的一生吗？ 如果你选择这样度过你的一生，那无可厚非。 （真怪：“你选择”- 没有“你”，“自我”与“自由意志“，你如何选择？）但强迫任何他人，尤其是你的孩子们与你一起进入对“虚无人生”与“完美专制”的崇拜/崇尚，那就是邪恶的定义。

望每一个人深思你自身的价值，你的家庭，你的亲人，你的后代。 你懂得“你”在说什么，做什么吗？